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Monday, July 20, 2009

Life

Ok, I'm done complaining about Summer.
What's up with my blogging lately? I just don't have the passion in me anymore. The only motivation I am feeling with it lately is to keep a history of our family's life. Help me!

So on with our family's happenings. Here's Celeste and Kennedy- a.k.a. MC's of our recent "Talent Show" here at home. I was laughing so hard during this that I just about peed. Good times. We went to the symphony with my parents, and other extended family. I love the symphony.
Eden got baptized. It was a nice ceremony. She was so thrilled she had the fit of the giggles in the font. I remember getting baptised and feeling the same way. My Grandpa Waite confirmed me and I was shaking with laughter the entire time. I was just so darn happy. Eden really enjoyed her experience. And her dad did a nice job too. Isn't he handsome?
We had a quarterly activity for Primary and it was utter pandemonium! I've never seen such a wild activity. I have to say it was my favorite I've been to though.
It was the state championships for baseball here. We got to see our nephews Hayden and Tyler participate. Both teams did awesome. Hayden's team got 1st place and Tyler's 2nd. This is Tyler getting his medal. All of our nephews are so cool. We are quite proud.
We just got back into town from the Boise area last night. We were only there for 24 hours. But we enjoyed getting to see Megan, Amy and Steve's family too. Wish we could have seen more people! Reed and Alysa had their beautiful baby girl blessed yesterday. It was a very quick trip, but fun. Unfortunately, this is the only time I remembered to pull the camera out. At the cemetery saying "hi" to our baby.

On the way home from Boise, we listened to the book "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch. He's the professor who died recently of cancer and left behind 3 small children and a lovely wife. The book was a tribute to them and left me feeling quite sentimental for my family. We all were very touched by it.
As a result I feel like making a little comment to each person in my little family.
Steve- I honestly don't think there is a woman out there who loves and admires her husband as much as I love and admire you. And you deserve it. I feel so lucky you chose me 11 years ago and still choose me today. I love your goodness, your integrity, your patience and how you treat me so darn nice all the time! There are too many good things to say about you to even scratch the surface in this moment. But I want you to never doubt you are crazy loved and admired and appreciated. I sure hope that forever with you is gonna be enough for me. Because I can't seem to get enough of you these days. My gratitude for such a heavenly marriage runs very deep.
Celeste- I'm really proud of you. I want you to know that I consider you a friend. As you grow, I hope that our friendship will continue to grow, because I'm starting to appreciate it more and more. In my mind, I find myself looking to you as a sister at times more than my daughter. I am not your superior. If anything you are mine. I love that I can talk with you about pretty much anything. I am amazed at your gifts and talents. Your mind can comprehend things well beyond your years. I am confident that you will make a beautiful wife and mother some day. I can already see so much of the inherent gift of mothering that you have. I am also confident that you can accomplish anything you want. You have been given the gifts and talents that will enable you to accomplish difficult things. Whenever you have spoken to me about your wishes and dreams, I have no doubt you could accomplish them. I think you are going to do greater things in your life than I've ever done.
Jonah- I don't like to talk about your bipolar disorder a whole lot because of various reasons. But I want to mention it now. I know that bipolar disorder is a very real trial. I know it makes everything feel so much more laborious than it really should be. I also know that God intends for you to be a much better and stronger person for it. And you will be. I know it. I really do. At the tender age of only 9, you've already struggled with this for 4 years. And it hasn't been easy. But I can already see you working through it. I'm very proud of you for it too. I don't ever want it to be used for an excuse for bad behavior or not excelling in life. Because I know you can overcome it and you will. And you will be a better person for it. I can see many gifts in you. You have a certain tenderness at times that blows me away. You have a lot of faith. So many times your prayers for our family in times of distress have visibly and quickly been answered. Prayers that when I uttered them, seemed unanswered. You are also quite smart in a way that is hard to get recognition for. You can figure scientific or technical things out that I myself cannot. It comes naturally to you. I sense that there are great things in store for you in life. I am excited to see them come to pass.
Eden- Just like Celeste and Jonah, you have been given great gifts too. I don't feel like I can take credit for them in any way either. You were born sweet. You were born with such empathy and kindness. You are grateful and who doesn't love being around a grateful person? You care about others and will often put their feelings ahead of your own. What a special thing that is! You have always been so likable to those around you. I know you'll have a happy life because of your gratitude and unselfishness. I feel that those two qualities will be all you'll need for happiness in your life. I hope that in addition to that, you will learn to appreciate the value of an education and get all you can. But I've never worried about you and I don't anticipate I ever will.
Becca- What a joy you have been to us! You brighten our home with your little body and big personality. It's been so fun to see you grow and see your siblings and daddy get wrapped around your little finger. My heart melts sometimes when I'm just looking at you and I find myself inadvertently smiling. I had to talk your dad into having you. But he admits now how happy you've made him and he's so glad we had another child. Maybe that joy you've brought us has been instrumental in convincing your dad to allow more children to come. I thank you for that. You've been fun! In my eyes you've been my baby for so long, that I guess, I've fought the urge to see you as anything but that. I'm beginning to see some cleverness in you lately though. I see your mind really starting to figure things out. You're gonna do great.
Benjamin- I know to some it seems crazy how I talk about you. But I don't mind. You are still in my heart. I wish you were in my arms! I see babies now that were born when you should have been and I imagine how life would be if you were crawling around too and keeping us on our toes. I still cry at times when I think of you and the heartbreak I had at your loss. You are very much a part of our family though. We all believe we'll be with you again. And the thought makes us happy. It also motivates us to be worthy of that eternal unit with you there. You are talked about often and loved always.
Charity- I've wanted each of my babies desperately. But waiting for you has been the longest. The anticipation for your arrival has almost been unbearable! I know that when I found out you were a girl, I struggled. But I assure you that I am very happy you're a girl now! A while back we had a Family Home Evening about coming up with a family motto. We talked about various ideas, but we finally settled on "Think outside yourself". We've tried to make that a big part of how we live as a family since then. Charity is my favorite virtue. I want to give and I don't want money or any material object to be more important to me than people. Charity in that sense is not the only part of it that is important to us. We want to be charitable in our actions socially. We need more patience in this world and letting other's bad behavior roll off our backs. To me that is the part of charity I want to always remember to embrace as well. So with all that in mind, your name has begun to really grow on me. And we are excited for that. In a way you will be a symbol and reminder to our little family of that. A reminder of the time in our family when we really decided to try and think outside ourselves. I want you to know that already we all love you. We are so excited to see you and hold you and shower you with love and affection. You'd really get a kick out of seeing all the hugs and kisses my belly already gets. We adore you.

13 comments:

Markie23 said...

Amanda - great post! It doesn't look like you need any help at all. In fact you're a blogging inspiration!!
I loved seeing you gize at dinner and the concert, but I turned around, and you were gone.
I am SO sorry I didn't make it Eden's baptism after I said I was going to be there. I didn't get home until 11:30 after the concert, and then Dave and Colleen were still up, and kept us up until about 1 am, and I just couldn't drag myself out of bed in time to make it. Eden looks beautiful, and I'm sad I missed it. Hope to see you again soon!

Memzy said...

Nice!

E said...

Thanks for sharing your tribute to family! It was a pleasure to read, and I feel like I know everyone in your family better.

Jen said...

I love reading all of your comments to your family- they are so sweet! I bet one day your children will read those and be so happy they have that record of how you felt about them at those ages and stages of development.

Eden was PRECIOUS when she was being baptized- I was watching her and thinking about becoming as a little child and letting that JOY out more myself when I feel it!!

Also, I apologize for the craziness of the primary activity. It was absolutely nuts. And probably my fault!! We missed you one Sunday and I'm glad you made it back safe and sound!

Swasey family said...

I absolutley LOVE this post!It was so sweet, and such a neat thing to do for your family.I may just copy the idea, I have written the boys little letters and put them in there baby books, but why not do it on the blog since it is the funnest way to keep a family journal!!I love ya girl.

P.S. Would you mind emailing me your address, I think I have your old address, and I have a few things I wanted to send to you.

Mary said...

Great post and tribute to your sweet family!

Kam said...

What a wonderful tribute to your precious family. We sure loved seeing all of you up here, though it wasn't long enough. We sure do love all of you so much. I would have loved to see the "talent show" you mentioned... sounds awesome!

Emily said...

Good stuff. I loved this post and I'm glad I got to share in some of those events with you. I miss you already!! love you.

Hot Pants said...

I'm glad I got to see you gize! Thanks for thinking of me. You are looking so cute with that baby in your tummy.

nutmeg said...

I had so much fun seeing you this weekend. Thanks for taking time out of you 24hr period for me.

Your post was simply beautiful by the way.

and for the teddy bear for charity, she will love it. Harper doesn't care for his yet but someday he will be thankful!

Unknown said...

That is so sweet. I must say I'm bummed that you got this close to me and I didn't get to see you. I just had to live through Tom.

Anonymous said...

I love this post, you are such a good Mom and you do have great kids!

Robyn said...

It sounds like you are having a busy summer. And don't worry about being in a blogging funk. I'm in one too. Sometimes when there is so much going on, it's hard to take the time to write about it. Miss you!