Confessions

I keep thinking about some of the things people are saying to me and I can't help but respond. First off, thanks for all the congratulations! Coming out with that news helped me feel better. I know I can be unusually open about my life and thoughts and feelings. For the most part I think I just really get strength from that rather than keeping things private. I hope that part of me doesn't grate on anyone's nerves. I can completely understand people who would want to keep things in their lives private and why. I am just not that way in most cases. But another thing that seems to happen is people will say things like "you're amazing" or "you make me feel_____ when I hear about all you do." When I talk about the things I'm doing I guess I do it for more than one reason. Mostly I think I just want to get what's going on with me out there because like I said, I take strength from that to keep moving forward. Don't really know why, but it's true. But certainly I do not want to make anyone think that they are less than me. That makes me feel bad actually. I really do struggle with a lot of things. I have a lot of things I do wrong and I think that's pretty apparent. Do I need to talk more about those things?? I am amazed myself by so many wonderful people around me. I really look up to so many people and want to be better because of their examples. And I'm thinking of most of you--my readers. (Yeah you- who's wondering if I'm really thinking of you!) You are all so gifted and talented and amazing in your own ways and I'm sorry if I ever make anyone feel any less than that. I need to do better. Thanks for letting me get that off my chest.