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Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Not to be

Well, Sunday I started spotting. I stayed in bed all day Sunday after talking to the nurse. This afternoon we knew it was over. We've lost the pregnancy. I was beyond devastated for a while. The past few days have been pretty rough. I've done a lot of praying and felt so alone as a result. But a miracle happened this afternoon and I got my answer finally. I wont even attempt to explain what happened to me, but I know God is there. I know He loves me, and I know that it will all be just fine. I'll write more later. Love you all intensly.

15 comments:

Emily said...

Amanda--I admire your faith and I'm so glad that you have been able to find some peace. I love you so much.
(((HUGS)))

Alysa . . . . and Reed said...

You ARE strong! I know that feeling of being so humbled and realizing that nothing in this life is truly in our hands. Our Heavenly Father does love us, and will comfort us through trials that we don't understand. We love you Amanda!

Robyn said...

I'm so sorry, Amanda. We love you very much!

Dalana and Mark said...

Our hearts are breaking for you. We love you. Your attitude and strength are inspiring. I'm so glad you were able to receive the comfort you needed. I hope you continue to do so.

TimW8 said...

Well look at the bright side you get to keep "trying." ;;wink;;

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Cristin said...

I'm so sorry! I'm glad you were able to find peace in all of this.

Jennifer P. said...

Amanda,
Sending you so much love. I hate that we can't control things. I hate that even when what we want is righteous, we don't always get to have it. But I know with every fiber of my being that anything we desire that is righteous will be given to us at some point. You have such fun, beautiful children. You are such a good mama. The Lord loves you.

Hugs.

Memzy said...

So sorry Amanda. As always, our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Shed said...

I agree with Tim ^

E said...

This really sucks. I'm so sorry you had to go through that. This kind of disappointment is tough to handle. I'm glad you asked for an answer and got one.

Anna B said...

I'm so sorry. I love you.

ManicMandee said...

What would I do without my big brother's humor!!!! Thanks everyone.

eekareek said...

Sorry to hear about it. I am glad you are being comforted though.

Hot Pants said...

I am so sorry. I hope you will continue to feel better.